It has been quite some time since I posted anything. It is a year now since I had hip surgery and my life was given back to me. In the time while awaiting the surgery, accepting the loneliness due to not being mobile caused me to write down my thoughts and feelings on a daily basis. The other day I came across the diary I kept, every day putting words on paper that would help me express how I felt. It feels right to share some of them now. They may help others in similar situations.
When I am alone
I am not always lonely
The silence around me envelops me
And holds me.
The darkness can push in
On this comfortable sense of safety.
I must hold back the fear of the darkness
It is only the warmth of the Mother
As she allows the moon
And the stars to hold me for a while.
Alison Strandberg 